I've already left him twenty million offlines on MSN/drafted an SMS to send to him (but didn't send because scared he annoyed because SMSes very expensive to reply)/thought about calling him just to gloat (but didn't because saving for a more special occasion wtf), but I'm going to say it again.
HEEEEEEE ZH YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I AM SUCH A DETERMINED WEIGHT-LOSER I'M SURE YOU ARE PROUD OF ME. (:
For now, I'll ttyls because I am going to the gym with Sharon and Mailinh!
I used my skipping rope today, because skipping is very vigorous cardio exercise! It is equivalent to running, and it is supposed to burn approximately 350 calories per half hour.
Project 365- Day 315, 27/12/2009
I managed to skip for 52 seconds. In other words, I have burned 10 calories- or approximately the amount of calories in one potato chip. FML
I rewarded myself by eating chocolate.
(Actually that isn't my hand. It's my brother's hand. You see, it looks more manly than mine right!)
I did not really want to eat it. I was conned into eating it because it was heart-shaped and too pretty to resist. 
Heart-shaped chocolates deserve to be eaten. It is the only just punishment for looking so delectable in the first place.
You see! I do not look like I'm enjoying it right. I look like I am being duped into eating twenty times calories that I burned today.
*quails under your disapproving glare
I started my Christmas Eve with a card from Eddy! <3>
And, uh, well, it was pretty much the only thing I remember about Christmas Eve.
~~~
Yesterday was Christmas Day.
Project 365- Day 313, 25/12/2009
I stole this image from www.beautysnob.com.
Merry belated Christmas! Yesterday I made full use of free public transport.
I also ate Cordelia's cookies.
Hello Cordelia! I want to tell you from Mom that your gingerbread cookies are veryveryveryveryvery good. (: and.....they are worth getting fat for. (Okay fine Mom didn't say that. I did.)
~~~
Today was Boxing Day. 
Chadstone opened at 5am, and I......woke up at 12pm. Anyway I went to Chadstone with Bhav and bought many many things!
Project 365- Day 314, 26/12/2009
I rarely get to do this (because I rarely buy things *sad) so I am going to do an inventory of what I bought, just to remind myself what an accomplished shopper I am.
.......maybe I didn't buy so many things after all.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry wtf.
Actually, I want to look into a mirror and say ''I told you so''.
~~~
[Edit]
Today my brother and I were singing this song at the top of our voices.
and I suddenly realized that I've been wrong all along.
I've always told myself to let go.......but in order to let go, you had to be holding on in the first place.
The prerequisite to forgetting is the presence of something to forget.
So it is inaccurate to say I ''had to let you go'', or that I ''lost you''. Nor can I say that even though you are gone, I will always treasure our memories because there was nothing to treasure.
You are part of me. You have always been part of me- my moral compass, my conscience, even a mental ruler: every time I meet a new guy I always think they are too short. Everywhere I go I see things that remind me of you: whether it's horror movies or Safeway or coffee.....but it's time to acknowledge the truth.
I am not part of you.
I have never been a part of you.
I am not your moral compass, or your conscience, or even a mental ruler.
Everywhere you go you do not see things that remind you of me.
I think this process is not so much letting go of you- it is more true to describe it as a slow learning process: the understanding that you were never mine to set free.
The day before, I got accused of stealing, got laughed at by two separate post office workers and twenty million IGA customers, and walked around in the scorching heat. But, uh, on the bright side I met Lynn's brother. (: Hello Thurein if you're reading this! (I don't think you are, but still.)
Project 365- Day 310, 22/12/2009
.......uh, yes.
My first 8 hours or so as an 18-year-old were spent in bed, in a semi-conscious sleep punctuated by the occasional happy birthday SMS! I read them all in a groggy haze, but thank you, Desmond/Sharon (who called at 12.01am)/Irene/James/annonymous-whom-I-think-was-Richa/Sheryl! (:
In the morning I went shopping alone on Burke Road.
Shopping alone is an amazing experience. Wandering up and down a street where no one knows you is the ultimate freedom, and it gives you incredible peace of mind to know that no one is going to judge you for anything you do.
You can walk up and down, explore all you like, look at price tags and smile at strangers, and no one cares.
This old man was sitting outside Angus&Robertson playing old Chinese songs! I dug out some change for him, because he reminded me of my grandfather.
You can take photos and squat in the corner of the bookstore reading books for free and no one cares.
This is the Camberwell Borders bookstore, and it is the best bookstore ever. Forget the musty, dark bookstores that have ''lots of atmosphere''- this bookstore had skylights and ceiling-to-floor windows that let in a lot of natural light and made reading seem.....natural.
Standing here, I was actually moved into tears by the sheer beauty of it all.
After that, lunch with Mom.......at Sofia's.
This plate of spaghetti was the small for $11.90! Super worth it okay. Both of us put together couldn't finish it.
Then I got home!
Thank you Desmond <3>
I've wanted a bubble gun since last year! (: Actually, uh, I wanted it so much that I even knew he would buy a bubble gun. One of the things I semi-love about being soulmates is how my guesses about him are usually accurate.
After that, I decided to cuddle with Bob and go to sleep. Just as I was semi-conscious and rolling around with Bob, Bhav walks into my room to give me this.
When I crawled out of my hole, I was very excited because Bhav had actually remembered my blog post about bacon-and-eggs band-aids.
Cordelia's Merry Christmas cookies.
They are gingerbread ones, and I am going to eat them for breakfast tomorrow. *excited
At night, we went to watch Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs. All of us, including Dad, who hates watching movies in the cinema (he says it gives him a headache).
I think that says a lot about Dad. 
I yelled at my brother for ignoring me while I offered him cake- and he forgave me within seconds. And I felt horrible when I got to my room and saw the handmade bracelet he left on my desk.
I think that says a lot about Tienwei, too.
Uh, I'm starting to not feel so touched anymore. Cheh who says I am fat!
My day ended with this picture, and a phone call from my grandma to wish me happy birthday.
Thank you to two amazing women. <3>
My birthday this year was not my idea of a perfect day (my perfect day does not involve being ''surprised'' while sleeping with Bob; or yelling at my brother). But if I can't have perfect, then today was pretty damn near perfect.
I think making the decision to be alone was a good one. Ultimately, I was more happy today- the people who did send me things/wish me happy birthday were people who really did care. I felt incredibly, incredibly loved.
Thank you for an amazing 18th.
Project 365- Day 311, 23/12/2009
Sigh why do I always look so ugly blowing.
P/S Happy 18th anniversary! <3>
I freak because I'm starting to realise that maybe you already left without me. But then I walk outside to see you coming back. You see me and your face lights up, and we run to each other and embrace.
Halfway through card/letter-writing today, I looked around and saw Sheryl walking into my room. And I wondered why she was there.
Then Lynn and Irene appeared, and I wondered why they hadn't called before they arrived. Then I realized my room was messy. Then they gave me a bag containing this:
Project 365- Day 309, 21/12/2009
A birthday card, a snowman candle (his name is Frosty), a rainbow necklace, a peach (because of Peachy!) and a jar of ''I love you'' candy! I wonder how they knew that I've always secretly wanted the ''I love you'' candy.
In fact, I wonder how you all always know what I secretly want.
Winnie and MsRachel's presents:
Winnie gave me this room fragrance thing, which smells really nice and is very appropriate for me because, uh, my room smells horrible. I actually think my room smells very nice, but there was once Desmond said he could tell how dirty my room was just by smelling my jacket *sad.
MsRachel gave me a whole set of things from Smiggle. (:
And.......I really, really like this picture, although it looks kind of, uh, stupid....
I love you tooooooo. (:
P/S Okay fine fine I will buy my hula hoop and my skipping rope myself.
Yesterday I finally opened my final card so far (Winnie's birthday card), as well as MsRachel's Christmas present and Yihrue's Japanese drama DVD.
Project 365- Day 307, 19/12/2009
While I was filing away my VCE certificates, I also came across this little slip of paper that I got in Standard 4. It was one of those activities in which you had to write something nice about everyone in class.
I never knew my friends were such good liars.
You see! I am 很温柔 (very sweet/gentle) and 很勤劳 (very hardworking)!
There were also some brutally honest comments.
The second last comment (没次在比赛中得奖) means ''never wins anything in competitions''. Uh, it's still true. *quiet
Oh crap it's 10.31 am already and I'm supposed to go out at 11am! I haven't even brushed my teeth yet.
I'll tell you guys later where I'm going, but for now I'll leave you with something to think about:
Snow falls gently to the ground, so I guess you didn't fall very hard after all. But then, I've never liked the idea of ''falling hard'' for someone, because that implies that love is painful, or accidental. I like to think that I love you because I choose to, and you would try as hard as you can to make sure I don't scrape my knee when I ''fall'' in love with you.
And.....happy birthday James! (:
[Edit]
Today I went shopping with Mom and I am super happy with what we bought! (Although we bought a phenomenal amount of things. I have never spent so much money before!)
Project 365- Day 308, 20/12/2009
The bag is only $3 from Jayjays! I am super happy with it, because I can do many many things with it. Eg:
1) I can take it to Safeway, tell the cashier I ''don't want a plastic bag'', and stuff all my groceries into it, feeling self-satisfied and happy because I have done my part for the environment.
2) I can take it to the beach/to the swimming pool, because it is the perfect size for sunglasses/swimwear/clothes.
3) I can take it to tuition, when/if I manage to find students. Hello little children, if you need ESL/Chinese SL+SLA/ History/Psychology tuition, Tienyi is a wonderful tutor! I give out free (expired) candy if you work hard, and I am very cheap ok. I am even cheaper than Jacks, and I photocopy all your notes for you because my brother has free credit in school. Personally I think History students need the most help, because you really need everything to be explained to you, but.....I'm happy to teach any of the above!
As for the sunscreen, I need sunscreen to avoid skin cancer.
......The end!
I have given up on cryptic writing (although I was a master at it some time ago- as of today, no one has managed to guess the true meaning of Coffee Post yet.)
This post is about love because lately I've felt a lot of love!
1) Yesterday was my first night with Patrick.
Project 365- Day 305, 17/12/2009
Patrick was Dad's laptop, but he is now mine! <3>I am very excited to be joining the world of Laptop-users-welcome to my world Patrick! (:
2) Today was a momentous day. I finally caught up with Lynn and finished all my Christmas cards!
Project 365- Day 306, 18/12/2009
Uh, Yihrue and Richa, yours had torn stamps because I accidentally ripped the stamps, so I'm a bit worried that you won't get your cards..... =( And Prof Leng/Shireen, yours might be a bit late! I ran to the post office, but the postman had already left with his sack of mail =(
But still.
These took me almost two weeks to do! I had to stay up until past midnight every night/take paper to the Great Ocean Road to write messages/think up new color combinations for every Christmas tree I colored in/get laughed at by Lynn because I wasn't as efficient as her, but still, it was worth it <3> Or at least, it will be when they arrive safely at your houses. *prays
3) Xiaxue is now engaged! This is the video of the proposal, which was super romantic! Her boyfriend actually made a video and had it screened as a movie commercial before proposing in front of the entire cinema. (: Watch the entire proposal here!
sourced:www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
Melody and I watched it and then, uh, discussed our own dream proposals. Mine is actually very unglamorous! It involves.....uh. It involves me and my boyfriend at a supermarket. So we will be looking at dishwashing liquid on sale and this is the conversation that will entail:
Boyfriend: Hey, let's get married.
Tienyi: HAHAHA okay whatever you say. Do you want to eat spaghetti for dinner? The spaghetti sauce is on sale- 2 for $5 lor!
Boyfriend: Okay I love you.
Tienyi: Oh you were being serious ah!
And then he will give me my ring and we will be engaged. The end.
For now I want a princess cut ring, because I like the name ''princess''! (:
If you can come up with a better proposal, or have a good romantic story to tell, comment now for your chance to receive a Christmas card from Tienyi!
This is for Peter, who told me my blog is understandable. Since all girls are supposed to be Impossible to Understand, I am going to salvage my reputation by writing an abstract post that you will never comprehend! In fact, it shall be entitled:
Tienyi's Thoughts, Written As Cryptically As Possible To Avoid Being Understood
Starbucks,
On a rainy afternoon.
Toffee Nut Frappucino- a cup of Christmas; Green Tea Latte, 1/3 sugar.
We talk
perhaps not heart-to-heart, but at least, face-to-face.
Something I cannot do with you.
Four persons, not just two; yet somehow my memories feel safer with them
Out in the open, nestled in a safety net made of three people who care,
not squashed in the tight space between me trying to tell you, and you pretending not to hear.
Special: you always were, and always will be.
But that is for me only; I am not special for you.
I guess it finally hit home today: you don't care, straight to the face-
you will never reply my excited emails or tell me your problems or hug me when you're sad (and when you're happy) or understand my little dilemmas or watch cartoons with me even though
I would have done it all for you.
So today
I said goodbye to my illusion of you
or my illusion of The Perfect Soulmate that was not you,
and I found that it was not so difficult after all.
I left the leaking raft that was us
struck out across a sea of secrets
and panting, I reached a place where there were people
sitting in a ship
that was solid because it was built of trust.
I look back,
and you are swimming away
free.
And your soul is whole and complete, and so is mine.
The raft that was us floats on the sea
a fond memory, an addition to a deep ocean of long-forgotten secrets.
~~~
Heeeeeee hello Peter, although you are currently Internet-less and unable to read this! I have tried my level best to be abstract, but.....I don't think it worked very well......
Oh, yeah. See the shirt I'm wearing? I bought it for $1 at some charity shop in Lorne! I love it lah, it's huge. The sleeves flop around because they are too long for my arms and it is so long that I can wear it as a dress if I want to. 
Read: clinging to the banister in fear wtf.Today I went to Richa's house for a Kris Kringle party!
Project 365- Day 304, 16/12/2009
HOW TO WRAP LA LIKE THAT. (By the way, the long stick behind the Toblerone chocolate is a huge Christmas pen! I actually tried it out to make sure it works. This is one of my longstanding Ambitions In Life- to own a huge pen- and I decided that if I couldn't buy it for myself, I am going to buy it for Lynn.)
Yes I know I look very odd.
Why am I so fat ah.
